Endless scream.

What a day is it today. Very important good and bad news come together today. My life is like a roller coaster. Endless scream. I cannot write about what is happening to me right now, because I am very confused. The big good news should make me very happy, and the big bad news should make me very sad. But since these two big news come at the same time, I do not know what to feel about them anymore. Not anymore. I really cannot recognize my emotion. It is like an endless scream. I am very confused, and I think I am getting exhausted.